The Slut Phase (is important)

the "slut phase" is important.

what i thought was confidently exploring beautiful, detached connection was really my inner child overcompensating for a lack of self appreciation & abuse of my sexual energy

giving & receiving so openly

climbing upon false thrones of momentary ecstasy

desperately searching for the love that was never outside of myself to begin with

only to find a bottomless pit of lustful distortion of truth

an endless siphon of my life force.

exhibiting my knack for pleasure was the hypocrisy

where in giving so deeply i only became tangled in the confusion-

lover's lovers & their past lovers

infinitely weaving the spiral dance of tantra- ultimate cosmic unity.

what i found was many fake orgasms but also incredible reflections.

i now mourn for that girl who drank her insecurities down with a fake face full of makeup & pursued the seemingly most attractive person at the bar in a wild goose chase to be honored, seen and validated

i mourn for the generational oppression that kept me caged from my own primal life force

blessed be the soul's sacred learning lessons

i mourn for the mothers who cringe in silence at their inauthentic devotion to lives they resent

the fathers who spill their seed rather than their emotions

i mourn for the lovers whose only agenda was tasting the impermanent mountain peak's dew

in my mourning i forgive myself. i release myself from the bind of self sabotage in the light of true love.

may the children of this earth know their sacred life force potential

& may it be used to heal all of existence

rather than capitalized in virtual programmed acting.

may the sweet amrita of our sacred love be honored once more.

may all love be held in the highest allegiance to Spirit moving through us.

souls returning again to the flesh

to access the ancient all knowing memory of Unity